theres a hole in my chest
but its different from the rest
ive felt voids before but this time is different
all times before, the source was evident
they told me i needed god. maybe they're right. but god told me i would get a family, and i aint really got that. moms insane and my brothers are gone, to the land of god.
so am i missing god
maybe
but i was doing fine as a godless sinner before
what changed
is it that my friends have up and left me? the land of god, the land of idols, the land of not here. theyre gone. doesnt really matter where they went. although there is her, so i guess i shouldn't complain
although she really isnt a friend
shes the greatest desire of my psychotic existence
a beauty made of broken glass
a mirror of the woman i hate the most
yet the only one still around
somethings not right. (obviously)